I've been depressed the last couple of days. In fact, so depressed that while I was at the grocery Sunday afternoon, I actually bought ice cream to drown my sorrows in. In my book, that's like the equivalent to buying beer or vodka when I was younger then guzzling it down after watching TV in the dark by myself. That was one of the things that scared the heck out of me so I decided to give up drinking altogether. Although, my usual excuse is vanity...hehehe...but there is truth to that. At this age, I don't need any other toxin, aside from living to make me look like a hag...hehehe...
Well, back to the ice cream eating, there I was, at home, eating Coffee Crumble (I got Selecta which had 2 flavors, Coffee Crumble and Rocky Road) and watching some show, I think it was Spoon and then I started thinking about everything about what I've been doing the past year or so.
Looking back, this year seemed so disappointing. It seemed like the year just passed by and what did I get out of it? Well, umm, a job that...er....I'm not going to say anything. I'll leave that to my Nanowrimo novel...hehehe....and that pretty much sums it up.
Or maybe I'm just focusing on the wrong stuff eh? I didn't think about finishing my certificate course in Special Ed, or working with children with disabilities.
Yesterday, I really wanted to snap out of my depression so I started the day thinking about the things that I should be grateful for. There are a lot of things to be grateful for, inspite of and despite of this thingy...hehehehe. More often than not, its easier to focus on the negative aspects on life. Then it overshadows everything that's positive in your life. And that's certainly what I've been doing.
So, on this seventh day of November, I'm going to firmly resolve, with the help of...whoa, it sounded like a prayer there, to think of good things before I get overwhelmed with misery.
That's my seventh wonder of the world for today. *Bow*
And now, on to my novel which I haven't touched since Sunday...or maybe not. I might not go to work if I get to engrossed writing.
Well, back to the ice cream eating, there I was, at home, eating Coffee Crumble (I got Selecta which had 2 flavors, Coffee Crumble and Rocky Road) and watching some show, I think it was Spoon and then I started thinking about everything about what I've been doing the past year or so.
Looking back, this year seemed so disappointing. It seemed like the year just passed by and what did I get out of it? Well, umm, a job that...er....I'm not going to say anything. I'll leave that to my Nanowrimo novel...hehehe....and that pretty much sums it up.
Or maybe I'm just focusing on the wrong stuff eh? I didn't think about finishing my certificate course in Special Ed, or working with children with disabilities.
Yesterday, I really wanted to snap out of my depression so I started the day thinking about the things that I should be grateful for. There are a lot of things to be grateful for, inspite of and despite of this thingy...hehehehe. More often than not, its easier to focus on the negative aspects on life. Then it overshadows everything that's positive in your life. And that's certainly what I've been doing.
So, on this seventh day of November, I'm going to firmly resolve, with the help of...whoa, it sounded like a prayer there, to think of good things before I get overwhelmed with misery.
That's my seventh wonder of the world for today. *Bow*
And now, on to my novel which I haven't touched since Sunday...or maybe not. I might not go to work if I get to engrossed writing.
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